A new baby! A new hope?
The doctor advised to wait 3 months before trying again but said we can try again as soon as 1 month if we're up for it. We were up for it!
During the weeks I was waiting and wondering, I often rolled out of bed in the middle of the night to pee. Originally I attributed that to pregnancy but after getting negative test results I put that in the normal category. In the end I realized that sore and tender breasts were a better sign.
We went to a wedding recently and I was suspecting, so only had a few sips of champagne to be polite. When we got back I took a test and it was positive! D and I were happy and hugged but for me I was afraid to be happy. What if this all ends in sadness again? Maybe it's not worth the emotional investment until it's more of a sure thing. It seemed logical. I am a robot.
That was week 6. It's now week 9.
- I'm feeling nauseous all the time, especially at night. This makes it harder to eat or do anything. Naan and apples taste good.
- Peeing two times a night instead of one. Dreams are more vivid.
- My sense of smell has immensely heightened. I feel like wolverine except most smells put me off.
- My breasts feel bigger and I read that they could go up two sizes during the pregnancy. They're not overflowing my bra yet but do fill more full so I guess I'll wait some more.
- My tummy does feel fatter but it's probably due to bloating more than anything else. Perhaps we should start taking pictures soon.
- Week 9 to 12 is when you can take the first genetic testing for down syndrome. I don't want to take it because it doesn't change anything and I don't need the emotional roller-coaster. D wants it so we're still undecided.
